Just checkin§ in on msn .... flyin§ by to say "Hi", If you click on the link you can see what I've been up to this summer. I've moved into a new flat and been decoratin§.....Decoratin§ pic.s
Lots of love from Sarah XXXX

                       
                   

I'm still decorating the new flat I've moved into ........ If I start "playing" on the internet ... nothing will ever get down.
I've already painted walls ... floors ... furniture ... there's loads more to do..
Meanwhile I wish you all well.......
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Blue-Same-Colour-As-My-Floor XXXXX

                                   
Happy Saint Valentine's Day to you all.....
Lots of Love Sarah  XXXXXXXXX

Crumbs ... what's going on here .. ???
So many changes: Does it make your life easier ?
                     Does it enable you to be more creative ?
                     Is MSN better than before ?
I've just moved house .. a couple of weeks ago to be precise, I should be decorating but instead I'm keeping warm.
I'm just sending you all my love ... and I'll be back at a later date once I've settled in..
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Busy-Busy-Busy XXXXX

     HELP  HELP  HELP  HELP  HELP
Does anyone know what that ghastly noise is on my page ?.
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Blue XXX .....
UPDATE: It's alright.. I've sussed out what it was and binned it..

            
With  Lots  of  Love  from  BalletCat-Blue  X X X ..........

                                          

I am writing to thank all of you.......
This time last week ... I didn't know that my mother had Cancer and neither did she. She rang me on Friday evening to tell me that she'd just been told.
She went into hospital on Monday morning of this week ... had a Radical Hysterectomy on Tuesday - personally I think what's 'radical' about that is being given a couple of Paracetamol after the op, I'd be demanding Chinese Heroin at the very least.
My mother is now sitting up in a chair in her room ... which has a telephone, I know 'cos I had to keep checking she was still alive at first.
She is eighty two ... the nurse told me that she had asked if the operation would turn her into an "old woman". I'm ashamed to say that she has far more energy and lust for life than I do.
During the weekend and before the operation ... I was SO scared... I was shocked and I felt sick. I think it's called a curve ball. I didn't know if my mother was going to live.
I got through it ... by telling all of you about it... bit by bit...
The waiting was awful and being on the computer definitely helped ... everyone wishing my mother well.
I'm sure collective good wishes must have a positive force.. And as my mother said the more people "gunning for her" the better !. And it worked ... THANK YOU .. Thank You for being such kind and genuinely caring t'internet people ..
I won't go on otherwise I'll turn into Darling Dickie and you'll all be sick.
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Blue  XXX
                                                  

            
                                                                                                                                           It's been a week since I've had a cigarette now. This is my third attempt at stopping and also my last chance.
Otherwise I'm deffo gonna die of some dread lung disease... says housemate. I'm taking tablets called Zyban which are odd to say the least. 'Odd' means they have many peculiar side effects, such as anxiety, insomnia, epileptic seizures and depersonalisation.
Oh Great !, Bring 'em on I thought ... (sarky but serious), such was my desperation to stop smoking.
You (me) take the tablets for ten days while continuing to smoke .. on the tenth day .. you take a tablet but don't smoke and the craving is fairly non existent.
Then you have to learn how to keep your mouth active .. as it was very busy before. I've taken up sucking a Biro - a much misunderstood and underrated pastime.
The next part of my ... I don't wanna die... I wanna be alive and full of enthusiasm, energy and strength involves my new bicycle. I got my bike on my birthday ... along with masses of good wishes from all of you ..for which I thank you, how come t'internet people are so kind ?.
Back to the bike .. and my riding it .. I haven't yet.. which is shameful really ..and all because I haven't got the energy to become energetic.
I haven't got any mental aspirations or energy either ... I said to a friend of mine .. "How can people spend hours on this... writing lists of their favorite songs ?". I realised later on .. that the question said a lot more about my state of mind rather than other peoples..
Lots of Love to you all from BalletCat-Definitely-Not-Depersonalised-Or-Am-I-?  XXX

                           
Writing still to be done... and that's because our brilliant summer, scoff, has left me completely unable to type. I've had to devise a new way of typing. Index finger of each hand.. plinkety plonk, infuriatingly slow but more to the point painful. An "arthritic flare up" which affects most bones in my body but particularly my hands !. Nice One ... Summer 2008.
I've consequently been using Facebook ... sometimes known as Face-Ache, as it doesn't require too much typing.
My name there is Sarah Darling - I've called myself that so I think everyone is being permanently loving towards me, It amused me I'm afraid.
SO... if you have an account there ... please get in touch ... if you wish.
Lots of Love BalletCat-Sausage-Fingers ...XXX.....................


               

                       
EMILY on her way to the carnival........................................
I'm at the carnival ... yesterday was kiddy winks day ... & even that was horrible..
I've been partaying for 36 hours now...
It's becoming far too heavy ... and I've got a camera .. plus a laptop with me..
I've seen some horrible things .. not the sort of images you need in your head...
So I'm on my way back home ... that's a far more daunting task than it sounds !.
Love BalletCat-Bit-Knackered XXX
P.S. I've added some photographs in the 'Photos' section.
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18th August 2008
First of all I want to thank my pal Swampthing ... I told him my birthday was on the 17th & he's wished me Happy Birthday in his blog. I neglected to specify which month my birthday was in. I suspect this springs from selective amnesia .. & goes with also neglecting to specify which year I was born.
My birthday is in fact in September .. and on the 17th of that month I'll tell you all how old I am then...
Cue.... Shock, Horror probe and I feel faint .. Gasp .... I don't feel at all well ... Oxygen NOW please ....... THUD !!!.
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Aha ... none of you are stupid are you ???? - I haven't even put words to my blog about Tallulah and you all seem to know that the reason I can't handle her anymore is white hairs everywhere ...
I can't afford to hang about ... I haven't been awake for very long and I've got about an hours Hoovering to do.
I'm a Virgo, I know you'll have to trust me on that one, being a Virgo means you're already borderline O.C.D., so it's something I try and keep in check.
BUT I can't live like this anymore ... what am I going to do with her ???, she's such a nice cat that giving her to the local cat's home seems far too cruel....
Lots of love to you all from Sarah XXX
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I'm getting a bit worried about people thinking I don't love them anymore. This is because I've been away from my computer for so long.
I have to admit I've gone a bit dulally about being in the sun and not wasting any of our precious summer.
I'm sure this all stems from having S.A.D.S. and dreading the winter.
I live in the middle of London and therefore don't have a 'real' garden. So instead I've been gardening on the roof.

                    

You can't tell from these photographs just how big the roof is, let me assure you it involves masses of lugging around of heavy pots, watering and everyday care but I LURVE it.
It means I can sit out there and pretend I'm somewhere else.
However there is a drawback and that is that I can't sit out there and use my laptop. Why can't somebody invent an awning for a laptop ? so I can still see the screen !.
Yeah I know - I can hear people saying "do it yourself" .. Well I've tried and my invention didn't work.

                 

No this isn't a much needed 'medicinal drink', something yum and refreshing like Pernod. It's boring old Lemon Barley Water which has the added bonus of stopping me from falling off the roof. The first time I ever drank Pernod was when I was living in Paris, It turned my legs into chewing gum. If I was drinking Pernod I'd not only land in next doors garden but also think it was my house and collapse into their bed.
I'm off out onto the roof now to give the plants another haircut.
Please don't think I've forgotten about any of you because I haven't and I'll be back very soon ... as soon as the sun stops shining.
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Purring-Loudly XXX
                               
          

                                                           


Dear God,
I F**KING Well neeeeeeeed SUNSHINE !!!.
Love BalletCat-Well-Pissed-Off XXX
To all of my t'internet friends.. I'm sorry that I haven't been around. I've been gardening and gardening and gardening. My fellow house dweller bought masses (masses = about 75 = Sqw'eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeem) of plants from catalogues ...  planted them, & here comes the really funny bit ... left the rest up to me... Scoff and Spit !!!.
They're not 'ickle' plants either ... they're enormous bigger than me type plants.
My friends on terra firma kindly advised me to "leave them and watch them die". But... I couldn't ... so I've been slogging my guts out !!!.
I'll be back soon .. in fact ... just as soon as I've tamed nature.
Love and hugs to you all from Sarah  XXXXXXXXX
                                                              

                                  

VALLEY OF THE UMS

When I was 17, I went to my family G.P., as I was 'depressed'.
I'd argued with my boyfriend .... at 17 it's possible to think your life is over .... after such an event. Looking back I realise that all I needed was a paternal hug.
The G.P. prescribed me 10mg. of Valium to be taken 3 times a day. I took them as prescribed, I didn't know anything about tablets except that my mother used to crush them up.... with jam or summink ..... and I was supposed to know they weren't there. Aren't parents silly but lovable..... Just !!!.
I took them for years - nay decades, so many decades in fact - I'm not telling you. BUT then everything changed .... drug companies fought about whether or not land ... could be syndicated. The swiss drug company Roche was legally enforced to relinquish the stranglehold it had on the making of Valium.Doctors mainly driven by cost also began to realise.... that maybe they wouldn't get their Valium paid golf trips.... Oh and mentally ..... derrrrrr !, there just might be side effects.
There are people all over this country who've been left..... living in a state of permanent Valium withdrawal. One of them is a vicar, he says.... the only thing he can drive anymore is his lawnmower.
So that's it..... just a minor complaint really ................. NOT !!!
Love BalletCat-Wishing-The-Rain-Would-STOP XXX

New Blog ... and So much to write about... I'm still sifting it all through.
Until I crash into some clarity I shall just say Happy Monday.
My father died on this day .. three years ago. To everybody else 7/7 means the terrible day of the London bombings. To me it will forever be the day that my Daddy died.
Lots of Love from BalletCat-Brain-Out-Of-Order XXXX

I'm not about at the moment as I'm turning myself into a crinkly cut chip. As You can see I'm just SOOO rushed off my feet. I haven't forgotten about anyone but today is supposed to be 27c, I don't want to waste the whole day. Of course, I don't mean that being on here is a waste of time .. but, but, but what if today IS our summer ?!.
Update: Mission accomplished, I now have a very fetching sun rash.
Lots of Love to you all from BalletCat-Pass-Me-The-Ambre-Solaire-Please XXX ................

Thank You ..... Thank You ..... Thank You ..... Thank You ..... Thank You !.  If you voted for me in the Spaces Hall of fame.
Strangely enough... I enjoyed it and met some new and interesting people. When you try and tell people that you have friends on the internet... they invariably look at you as if you've forgotten to take your medication !.
So... Here's to loonies everywhere and thank you all for making it FUN. XXX

                                                           

Happy 90th Birthday to Nelson Mandela.
I've just rung up the birthday 'organisers' and the tickets for the concert in Hyde Park are between £400 and £500.
It's O.K., I know that the money is going to a good cause - The Aids Foundation.
I won't be paying that price though .. I'll be loitering with definite intent just outside .. If I decide that I want to listen to Will Smith et al.
HAPPY WEEKEND .. to everyone..
Lots of Love BalletCat-Sarah XXX .......................                                                                                       

              

I have been nominated in two categories at The Spaces Hall Of Fame.
Please if you love me at all .. can you place a vote for me under the category which is called "Most Inspirational".
Now I'm not sure if I can 'do' links but I'll give it a go
Click Herehttp://spaces-hall-of-fame.spaces.live.com/default.aspx
If that doesn't work then please get in touch with me and I'll shove you there myself.
Lots Of Love BalletCat-Dee-Lighted XXX ........